I seriously don't know what's wrong with me, but it's bad. It's really bad. The scariest part of it is that I can't figure out what exactly is making me so depressed, which means I can't change anything to make it feel better. The only solution I see is more money so I can get health insurance and maybe see a doctor.
I have little-to-no ability to concentrate, periods where all I want to do is cry, constant muscle weakness, almost nightly nightmares, nausea, a feeling like I'm going to die any time, a preoccupation with death that gets worse in the evening, naps after work (when I've never been a napper before), lack of enjoyment doing things I know I love, and this strange shyness where I've always been outgoing.
Nothing cheers me up, so there's no use trying.